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Last night the girls went down to bed pretty early — about 7. My neighbors were awesome and offered to walk Falkor when they took their dog for a walk. I was pretty happy about that because he needs that daily walk but I just didn’t have the energy to walk him, and the girls at the same time. That means I had lots of time to myself. What did I do with it? I downloaded a game sparkle on my ipad, and watched Bethenny Getting Married? and Buffy the Vampire Slayer (man xander was such a bitter teenager..why didn’t I notice that before) while crocheting and playing games. It was pretty reminiscent of prebaby days where I would spend many days like this. It’s nice to not feel like every free moment of mine has to feel meaningful (though I did feel a pang of guilt here and there…but crocheting is work! and I am tired of having that unfinished blanket and tangled yard in my living room.

I got a trampoline yesterday for only $4 — among other treasures (party supplies, 2 skirts, gifts, fun shoes, seasonal decorations – fun now that we have kids, etc). It was a sweet day. Picnic with our friend Lowen in a beautiful park next to a fountain, great garage sale weather, lots of playing at home but no naps.

It’s gloomy this morning — hm 30% chance of rain.

I need a baby sitter for tomorrow. I asked my neighbor and she had plans and I am waiting to hear back from Stephanie the baby sitter. If I had been thinking about Sunday rather than Neener’s party next week then I might have planned a bit better. Sigh. We haven’t missed going out for any anniversary dinners in .. well 11 years. Just gotta make 12.

Included are a variety of Morella’s dresses..the dog (as well as I could get)…and it’s been a bad month for photos I guess.

Falkor liking his lips.

Leo and Morella playing in Morella’s room with the door open.

Morella at Christian and Cecci’s 10th Anniversary party. We all wore red. It was cute.

They look so alike it’s like looking in a mirror. Scary!

Neeners, while she was working on her first tooth since the one she was born with, was prone to falling asleep sitting up. Here she feel asleep with the baby sitter.

Morella put her own ultimate princess outfit together for the evening walk.

Morella and Moslee at the bridal shower this past weekend.

Afternoon dinner making time TV typical sight.

A slightly better picture of the dog. I can’t tell you how many blurry ones I had.

Morella and Neener’s birthday invitation when they arrived taken via my phone.

The good news, and it’s nice to hear it, is that the mass is really only the size of a quarter and the Dr. referred to it as a nodule that has always been there. Dr also said that Mom’s thyroid was not out of whack and that the ER doctor must have confused patients. Tim had mentioned to me last night that July is the worst time to go to the ER. I totally believe it. So whew! My Mom is okay as she could be. Well, I still harbor that hope that she’ll turn her whole physical life around, lose weight, get rid of the diabetes, quit smoking, exercise, organize better, etc. But I’ll take it.

Morella is going to be in her uncle’s wedding, along with her cousin Moslee and Zeland. I told Tim “For once I’ll be enchanted with little kids walking down the aisle.” Ha, I guess the trick is to have one of those kids be your own. The only part I am not sure on is the dress. Sarah mentioned that Target had some kind of dress the girls could wear to be matching. Fine, except, I had bought Morella a dress a couple months ago for the wedding. She fond it a month or two ago and has been very excited to wear it for the wedding. It’s been sort of the ultimate princess dress. I hate to disappoint her by not letting her wear it, because I am almost 100% positive that the Target dress won’t be as fancy. I guess she could wear it at the rehearsal dinner, or change into it after the ceremony. Hm.

Today we went to the Red Park for playgroup. It was a great two hours relaxing and visiting and letting the kids play. We came home and the girls both took a nap letting me write in my personal journal. My Mom hadn’t called me by then, so I took a risk and called her to get details on the doctor appointment. Within a minute of me talking, Athena was up and crying. See?! There is a reason I don’t make phone calls during nap time. My voice is very powerful to Neeners. We ended up hanging out for a couple hours until Morella woke up, with a little help from Neeners. After naptime, we all headed to Hyvee to get Morella’s milk, some bread, have a snack and get information on party trays and cakes. I am going to order the cake at Hyvee and then bring to my friend Hilary’s to decorate. It’s going to be awesome!

What else, I fixed the armoire, I made Neeners 1 year doctor appointment at the new place, I made dinner (huluski – cabbage, egg noodles, onion and butter), cleaned up the kitchen, loaded the dishwasher, watched Burn After Reading (meh), caught up on the girls calender, made accommodation plans for the wedding, took a shower (with a crying Neeners at the side of the tub while Morella watched a little TV), and looked at the internet a bit. Overall, I guess I could have done more, but at the same time I didn’t really feel like it. I was just thinking tonight that I should finish that afghan so I get it out of my living room, and start working on the girl’s christmas stockings since they are these over the top felt type thing kits…heirlooms people. I am working on memories that will last a lifetime.

Well, I am going to do 10 Things before bed. One of them is start the dishwasher, another is to shred some junk mail.

Today I drove all the way to Franklin outside of Milwaukee to attend a bridal shower for Kelly, our soon to be new sister in law come September. I brought the girls with me and Tim stayed home to do yard work and putter. I am extremely proud of myself for doing this drive, complete with traffic and two little girls by myself. I couldn’t have done it without the GPS. Rather, I probably could have done it, just not without as much confidence. Anyway, Morella had a blast playing with her cousin Moslee and Neeners eventually warmed up enough to not cry whenever anyone looked at her. I found out that the wedding is “vintage inspired attire.” Apparently it was in small print on the invitation — boo to me for not looking at it closely enough. Since Tim is in the wedding he has a tux, I already have a dress for Morella and does it really matter what Neeners wears? I mean she’ll still be crawling so dresses are sort of out. That leaves me. A part of me is excited about the possibility of wearing a vintage costume. I looked up the definition of vintage and it would seem anything from 1920 – 1960 is considered vintage, after that it’s “retro.” I know that a hat of some sort should come into play, but I feel like I need help figuring out some kind of vintage outfit. It’s been so long since I have taken an interest and had an occasion to put together an outfit of some sort. I used to do a ton of that back in my goth days.

We got back and Tim made dinner of venison chops, savory rice and broccoli. It was great to have dinner prepared for the girls because I had my monthly book club meeting. Five of us total showed up and it was a great evening of visiting and chatting — even some of the book, which I’ll admit I didn’t read. The book was Kitchen Confidential: Adventures in the Culinary Underbelly. I confess to a little bit of judging a book by it’s cover in this case and didn’t get around to reading it. Shame on me.

As I was leaving my phone rang. I answered it and it was my Mom. She told me that she fell last week and went to the doctor with pain a day or two later. The ER doctor said she had rib contusions, another kidney infection and a large mass in her lungs. He told her to wait two months and have another x-ray to see if the mass got any bigger. Hogwash, I tell you. What utter crap of advice. She had a plethora of exams not even a year ago, and at the at the time no mass had shown up. Suddenly there is now a “large mass” and he wants to her wait two months? Not to mention that the medicine he gave her would probably kill her because of her liver problems and diabetes. She is seeing her regular doctor tomorrow. I told her to urge for a biopsy or something. She’ll call me and let me know how it went. It’s no secret that there is a host of medical problems with my Mom and that she continues to smoke when she can afford it. It feels like every day has been sort of borrowed time, and yet knowing that, hearing this kind of news doesn’t make it any easier to digest. I guess I don’t know what to think. Wait and see.

Meanwhile, yesterday my friend Lowen and I went to the St. Dennis festival for the garage sale and got some awesome stuff for only $11 bucks, including Neener’s birthday presents and things for some friends and my Mom. I was going to save some of the stuff for my Mom for Christmas since I have a box for her, but now I think I should just sent all the stuff I have accumulated to cheer her up. And you know, who knows how much time we really have. After that I took Neeners and went to pick up vegetables and drop off a box for a friend who couldn’t pick hers up. Morella stayed home to nap because she had me, and Athena up for a couple hours over night thanks to more thunderstorms.

That evening we all went to St. Dennis to eat dinner, listen to music, meet up with some other neighborhood friends and play carnival games before coming home to bed. After the kids were asleep, Tim and I indulged in a late night of talking about the state of stuff. Nothing was really resolved, no big decisions of life altering stuff, but you know it’s important to just talk and get these things out.

I bought a new dress today and a pretty blouse, along with a belt to go with the dress since I didn’t like the belt that came with it. I don’t have many dresses at all, so it’s nice to have one that I could wear and nurse in. (I tried to find it on their website but couldn’t, sorry). I like it, and it’s not black. Oh speaking of which Morella’s Aunt Sarah asked Morella what my favorite color was and she said “black.” Ha ha, that girl of mine. I love her, she’s so observant these days.

Back to the grind tomorrow. Oh, and the car is making a funny rattling noise, so I guess I’ll be taking it in to have a look at. I can’t stand the car not being 100% perfect.

For some reason Morella refers to thunderstorms as Dadastorms. I think she thinks she’s being funny…but yet it sticks. It has thunderstormed all day, which put a kabash on our weekly garage sales with Lowen. However, it was useful in that we used today to go to Costco to get pricing and look at party trays for Neeners party. I got a bunch of meatballs and ravoli, booze and pickles, juice boxes and candy for the party but I wasn’t impressed with the party trays and the cakes were straight out of cakewrecks.com. I guess I have high standards…high enough to use HyVee. Now people need to start telling me that they are going to come versus telling me why they can’t make it.

On the way home we stopped at a park in Middleton — a cozy little “neighborhood park” that was empty. It was super awesome though and something like that over on the East side of Madison would be packed daily. As it was, we were the only people there. Sure the equipment was wet, but it wasn’t raining and things had sort of dried out, and as long as you brought a towel you could play. Neeners and Morella made the most of it and ran (and crawled) around while Lowen and I ate a costco picnic lunch. The only drawback to the place was that there was no bathroom. I guess that is what they mean by “neighborhood.” Go home and use your own bathrooms.

After we dropped Lowen off (there were no sales to be seen, except one, that is really just a craft sale disguised as a garage sale) I came home and let Morella watch Cloudy with a Chance of Meatballs again. There are slim pickings for kids on instant netflix. While the movie is on Athena and I play on the couch and I occasionally let her nurse. She loves nursing on the go…so to speak and I still think it’s funny so it’s a win win all around. Almost toddler nursing is a hoot!

Tim got delayed in coming home because of another broken spoke on his bike and had to get it fixed. Meanwhile I made a dinner of ramen, easy mac and pulled pork with steamed green beans for dinner. I made a variety for the kids because I am sick of them not eating. I don’t do it all the time, and I was motivated to do so (while holding Neeners) because I managed to clean the kitchen this morning It’s so nice to be in a clean kitchen while cooking — I want to be there. Tim came home for a few seconds and changed Morella’s sheets to her new pink ones. I was told they were twin, but they are clearly full, but they can be tucked in. She is in love with the color pink. Sigh. Whose kid is this again?

Dadastorms continued to rage and tornado sirens wailed on and off. Neeners was tired so I put her down around 7:00. She sure was tired considering she went to sleep with Morella poking and prodding her, petting her head and giving her kisses. She wouldn’t go to bed because of the storms. After Athena was down, we went into the living room and read books. We were reading this one A to Z Winnie the Pooh book and when we got to “I” (for ice skates) she pointed to Pooh and asked what that was. I explained that Pooh had a pillow tied to his butt in case he fell. I then stuffed a small pillow into her pajama bottoms and pushed her down on the couch. She thought it was hilarious and continued to fall on her butt for 15 minutes. Then we made a fort with a blanket and then Athena started crying. She has gotten into the habit of pooping after she goes to bed. I went in and changed her diaper, and nursed her down again — all with Morella’s help. Eventually I told Morella to go to bed. She left willingly (a sure sign she was tired) and because the Dadastorm had died down for the moment. A few minutes later I went in and tucked her in, put on her music player and she was out.

I put away all the costco stuff and then cleaned our my google reader to zero. Hurray! I even caught up on LJ. I filled the dishwasher and started it and voila! No more grinding. I looked at it yesterday morning and discovered a cherry pit. Gah, I need to rinse those dishes instead of just scraping. Clearly I suck at the scraping method.

I was going to take a shower tonight but I don’t want to go in and risk waking up the Neens by getting my jammies and clean underwear. I guess I’ll find a way to do it..oh wait, I have babysitter Stephanie tomorrow! I can totally take a shower then. Yeah, that is what I’ll do. I have her take them for a walk even so that I can do it in peace and quiet. Last week Athena cried almost the entire time she was with Stephanie. Oh Neeners…

Yesterday was a long day. Gosh what did I even do yesterday other than pass out on the couch after I put Neeners down at 8:00, and then climb into bed at 10 when I woke up? Oh I remember now. I met up with a neighborhood Mom at Daisy Cupcakery and her daughter. We went to a nearby park afterward where my legs were nearly devoured by mosquitoes. Note to self – black leggings in the summer without serious deet protection are a horrible idea! Before that the girls managed to get me outside where I decided to plant all of the plastic bag plants (and got eaten alive). It looks good. Morella has something new to water in the garden.

Today we all got up at around 8:00. I felt well and full of that restless energy that comes with getting enough sleep. We went to the Monona park for playgroup and had a wonderfully relaxed morning playing in the sand (obsessively sift sand to clean the sandbox), on the swings and chatting. Neeners fell asleep in my arms and after holding her for about 20 minutes I put her in the car and decided to go home. I was able to transfer her to the crib where she slept for about a 1/2 an hour while Morella and I watched a little TV and vegged. Then Athena woke up, I made a lunch Morella didn’t want (I told her if she didn’t want lunch she could go to bed, which she did). Athena actually ate and then we spent the next couple of hours nursing, cleaning the living room and playing. Eventually she went to sleep and I read a book – Not Becoming my Mother by Ruth Reichl and wrote down my thoughts regarding the book and my Mom and looking at the internet a little before Athena needed a settle down. When it was all said and done Morella slept about 4 hours! Great … except she is STILL up and having a hard time going to sleep despite going to bed almost two hours ago.

The salad and corn on the cob for dinner didn’t get me far, so I had a piece of cake, some raisinettes, cherries and peas in a pod while trying to watch the french movie Priceless. Eventually I gave up because I am tired and didn’t want to read anymore and wanted to do a quick write down.

Oh I fixed my tomato plants — I put those round circle support things around them and a couple fell off. I picked them off the ground and told Morella to take them to the front steps to bring in. Morella then took it upon herself to start picking other green tomatoes and had amassed quite a few before I caught her. I told her to put them in the windowsill in the office where we get the most sunlight. I hope they turn red. I am sure my little reporter will keep me informed.

Then we walked the dog and I vacuumed. I am amazed at how much dog hair there is around here now. Pluto never shed that much and I guess I got a little spoiled because of it. While I was vacuuming a motorcycle pulled into our driveway and it turned out to be Laima delivering bumbleberry jam. Morella showed her a few of her princess dresses and chatted a bit before Laima had to leave. She said she wanted to get home before it got dark. We told Morella when she left that she could get a motorcycle if she wanted but we would mightily prefer that she didn’t because they are too dangerous. Morella then said “When I get big” to which Tim replied “I’m big and Mommy still won’t let me have one.”

This past week she’s struck upon the concept of big and little. She is often telling me that she is too little to do something (said in a very small pathetic voice) like turn on her light or open a door. Things that she is fully capable of at other times. I’ll admit it’s pretty darn cute and I have to bite my cheek to stop from smiling.

Morella just not said she needed a drink of water. Sigh. She has needed to be tucked in at least five times, have a pair of socks put on, and lord knows what else. Tim has been answering her ridiculous requests and just now told her it was the last last time and if there is one more time then she gets a time out (the door gets shut). Why is she up?! Is a four hour nap really that powerful?

Ugh. I am tired. I gotta go to bed. Especially if there are thunderstorms tonight then it means I might have a boney little girl climbing into bed with me sometime in the morning.

The dishwasher is making a grinding noise. I have stopped the cycle no less than four times over the past couple of days and found: the blender washer, a stem, olive pit and some paper, but it continues to make a grinding noise and it’s driving me mad. I guess I’ll take the bottom spinning thing off tomorrow and clean it with a brush. But I have run my fingers over it several times and haven’t really found more. This sucks!

Today we went to the red park this morning. A bunch of people showed up and we had a pleasant time. We stayed for a couple of hours, several potty breaks because Morella drank three cups of liquid, and sharing of her toys. Neeners continues to be super needy. She wants to be carried but not touched. She is constantly shoving her hand into her mouth and whining. This afternoon nap was succeeded only because she nursed for over an hour…constant nursing and dozing. I guess it makes sense since she isn’t eating anything. When you offer food to her she’ll have a bit or two but mostly she just starts to throw it on the floor and scream. I remember that at 11 months Morella went through something similar. I had taken her to the doctor several times because she suddenly quit drinking bottles and was down to 4-6 ounces a day for almost two weeks. Then of course she got that terrible ear infection. She never did go back to the bottle, and in that instance I found the silver lining in that we didn’t need to wean her. I gave her some motrin knockoff before bed and thankfully she hasn’t woken up.

We watched the last Fringe tonight and I can’t say that I am happy with the ending. Why am I being bothered by show endings and plot twists? I am still, on some level, upset with how Dexter ended last season. Am I becoming one of those people that get involved in their “shows?” I don’t know.

After nap, which ended at 5:30 (too late!) I made a lot of noise to wake up Morella while making dinner. Neeners was happy to sit on the floor and play with some magnets and later Morella while I got dinner ready. It lasted about a 1/2 an hour before Tim got home and was able to take carry her. After dinner we took Falkor for his evening walk. No one cried during that, but again it was because Morella was in a good mood and kept Neeners entertained. Hurray for big sisters!

Morella called Tim today on the phone and talked for about 5 minutes really well, while my friend Sigrid was over visiting. She just got laid off and is feeling really betrayed about it. I would be too. I wish there was more I could to help. Eventually I had end the visit because Neeners and Morella were becoming unbearable and desperately needed that nap.

The house continues to be in disarray. Every day it’s two steps forward, one step stagnant. I did take a shower tonight and used an aromatherapy steamer I got from Maxwell street days. It was nice because I could actually smell it. I wish my sense of smell wasn’t so bad. Alright, so far no plans for tomorrow other than to try and fix the stupid dishwasher. I have a bunch of plants sitting in plastic bags by the front door that I got 90% off at Ace on Saturday. I should water them or something, or at the very least put them outside so that rain can do it’s work. Sometimes my eyes are bigger than my stomach.

I have to start posting more of the little things, if only so I can write down what happened in the girls calender when I let weeks lapse. I thought I would be able to check my journals and fill it in this last time, but there are too many gaps.

Wednesday (14th) – Toy swap and treats at Burke Park with the Mom’s club. I got a baby’s lullaby music type thing for Morella which she has been loving and using every night. I love how it turns off after 5, 10 or 15 minutes, though I wish it had more of a selection of music than just two songs over and over. Athena got a stand up spinning activity table type thing that both girls are loving. It was a successful swap. I had gotten two more toys the girls don’t care about that I might just pass on to someone else. We stopped at Hy-Vee on the way home for Morella’s milk and some misc food items.

Thursday (15th) – Migraine day. Still I got the girls dressed and picked up Lowen to do our weekly Thursday garage sales. We hit a bunch and then had lunch at Cool Bean’s. I got home by 3:00 and tried to put everyone down for a nap. Nothing doing. I was feeling sick and nauseous and then remembered back to when I used to baby sit two girls. One of the time’s they wanted to watch a movie and I asked them how often they got to watch movies. They said not very often, except when “Mommy had a migraine, then they got to watch movies all day if they were quiet.” BINGO! We watched Cloudy with a Chance of Meatballs and it was heavenly, I was finally able to kick the headache, though I was pretty tired after that. Even so, I manage to take the dog and the girls for a walk after giving them a dinner of PB and J — I don’t remember what Athena had — she hasn’t been eating that much of anything lately anyway. After much settling down, I finally got the girls in bed (Tim was out playing his weekly Thursday night game) I watched Girl With A Dragon Tattoo. Not what I expected at all – but it was pretty good.

Friday (16th) – we had Anna with Caleb and Auggie, and Tracy and Aubrey come over for a play date with water in the backyard. Morella was the only one really interested in getting wet and throwing water on other kids. Just wait, Morella — in another year or two Athena will happily be your playmate for almost whatever you want to do. In the morning I left the girls with the babysitter and her BFF to go to Maxwell Street days. I got some necklaces and a few gifts for future needs. I stopped at a garage sale on the way back and scored some my little ponies (Morella’s new favorite) and a bunch of “princess dresses.”

Saturday (17th) – we ran errands. Falkor ate Tim’s Keen’s and so he needed to get a new pair. We went downtown (to get some card protectors and a book from a gaming store) and took the girls to Maxwell street to get some food before heading over to Gander Mountain. By the time we got there Morella fell asleep so I stayed in the car with her and Athena playing in the front on my lap while Tim ran in and got some new Keen’s. Then we went to Ace to get hedge trimmer and some 90% off plants that I intend on planting before they die. Afterward we stopped at home for a break before heading over to Ann’s place (with Noah and husband Peter) for a BBQ. We ate out on their deck and it was a glorious Saturday evening meal with the kids playing. It ended with a dance party before went home to put the hot kids to bed. Tim and I watched Fringe.

I had woken up at one point in the night with someone on my chest. I was holding them and gave them a snuggle before realizing that the bony girl it wasn’t Athena and… what the hell was someone doing on my chest? I asked her what she was doing and she mumbled “Dadastorm”. I woke up Tim and he made some room in the bed for her. I put Athena back in the crib for a few hours, but she later ended up back in the bed with us. I laid at the opposite end of the bed to make room. It was very cozy and I had a terrible night’s sleep. Before Morella crawled into bed with (I hate not knowing when she does that), Athena was flopping around and was restless. I dosed her with tylenol before she finally settled down. These teeth of her cannot come in fast enough! Tim and I watched Fringe.

Sunday (18th) - We slept in, sort of. After the girls woke up, I changed Athena, turned on the TV for Morella and snuck back into bed for more sleep. Later we went to the Dane County Fair to look at the animals, exhibits, eat a funnel cake and some cheese curds and let Morella ride the carousal. It was so fast that she was hanging on for dear life and had enough by the end. We came home, ate lunch and everyone took a massive three hour nap. I got everyone up at 5:30, baked a cake and headed outside so the girls could play in mud and water while I mowed the lawn and did some weeding. After that it was getting late and the girls needed dinner. We had crockpot au jus sandwiches and cake. I gave the girls a quick bath before that to get the mud and bug spray off. They stayed home with me to watch a “Mommy movie” (At first I started James the Giant Peach — too scary, and then switched to the Swan Princess — too boring). The girls were in bed by 9 and we watched two more episodes of Fringe.

Notes:

–Morella loves ice cream and butterscotch pudding
–Tim got stung by a bee on his ride home Thursday
–I got a terrible skeeter bite that almost got infected — hydrocortisone is the only thing that is bringing it down
–We got a hedge trimmer and it was worth every penny

The other day a friend linked to this article:  All Joy No Fun  the other day in her Facebook account. It has take me a couple of days to actually read it, and it’s been very thought provoking. It’ comes on the heels of also reading Confessions of a Slacker Mom and it has me thinking about my parenting style, about how having kids have changed my life and who I am as a mother.

The thoughts that came to me, are really more questions that I would like to address in upcoming posts. You know, just to really think it all out.

1. Why did you have children?
2. What were your expectations of having children? What did you think it would be like?
3. How much leisure time do I actually have now?
4. Is the experience of having children different than that of my parents and my grandparents?
5. Why do so many parents feel overwhelmed? Is it: lack of childcare and help, loss of personal time, martial relationship, cost, expectations of what I should provide/how to be a parent, judgments from others?
6. How has the experience of parenthood fundamentally changed? For example, is it that we just have more time to think about it and wallow in our own experience? Example being arts didn’t evolve until mankind cultivated agriculture and freed up more time to pursue such interests.
7. “Economically worthless but emotionally priceless”
8. More education leads to more structured organized activities (5 hours versus the 2 hours for high school dropouts)
9. Do you believe in giving your children every advantage?
10. “It’s the drudgery that is so hard.”
11. Did you experience an acute loss of freedom and autonomy? :Huge source of joy but they turn every other source of joy into shit.”
12. Following the ideal that there is a right and wrong way to do things, and living up to that.
13. I often wonder how other parents in other countries view parenting. “American’s make everything complicated.”
14. Do you lose your “interesting” cred? Do feel like you have become less interesting as a person and project that out as your person? (For example, talking about the banality of housework, sleeping schedules, feeding schedules, kids..”
15. Married women were less depressed than childless peers.
16. No one with children regretted having children, whereas some who chose not to, regretted not having children.

Bonus question: What am I giving up right now in order to raise these kids?

Stay tuned!

Montage can be found here.

I liked how the first image is so similar to the first image I have starting this little journey of Athena at 1 month. I do wish I had started at day 0 – but you know that was just unlikely.

We went to the doctor today because of a suspected ear infection. Of course Athena rocked it and was healthy. He said that she is in the 10-14 day waiting range to see if the cold turns into a sinus infection and to keep an eye on it. Meanwhile, she is super cranky except when dosed and wants me to hold her all the time. She isn’t eating anything, and just throws it off her plate in disgust. She has a clear runny nose, that is starting to clear up, but mostly she was banging at her right ear. I want to buy a ear scope and figure out how to tell myself so I can save myself money from going to the doctor since every trip now costs me a bucket of dollars. I was so upset about it during the check in (and watching how so many others were asked how they were going to pay for it, which I don’t recall happening at GHC) that I started to cry. I pulled it together and acted like a sullen baby for the actual doctor’s visit though. Athena weighs 20.2 pounds, with her clothes and a slightly soiled diaper on. I knew it. I knew she wasn’t gaining weight and was slimming down. I am destined to have beanpoles for kids.

Uh Tim is home with Morella from the vet or whatever. He needed to get Frontline for Falkor. Athena doesn’t want me to hold her, but wants down. GAH!