have been working on fixing up the apartment…adding more flowers…cleaning up things…arranging things attractively in order to make it nice..but that is more side projects….and it is clean. I want to get back into crafts. I want to have a indian buddy to make outfits with….to be excited about dancing at a powwow. A real indian or part indian friend. not just a mostly white friend (or completely) that I have to constantly reassure and make feel better, and justify (that it is okay that they are interested in Native ways, and can participate fully in events…such as a powwow). Wow, did I just say that? I can’t believe I did. I don’t think I have ever admitted that before. It seems like such a nonPC thing to say…to say that I would like another half indian, or more friend to hang out with and do indian things with.